It won't be a Merry Christmas this year (or any other) but I wish you both peace, and joy for Ashley. Hope you are having fun in heaven bugaboo,I always think of you crying with the Santa hat on, it was so heartbreaking but you looked sweet,as always.
We only met a few times in Anthony's room a couple of years ago while Ally was in the PICU and then with Ally in Childlife so we don't really know each other but I have followed her story ever since. I can't tell you how much you have been on my mind. I don't really even know what I want to say except that I am thinking of you. I can't tell you it will get better with time because I have not been where you have but I hope that you can find some peace someday.
I know tomorrow will be especially hard and I know it seems terribly unfair that you will not be able to watch Ally open her presents...it is unfair...but I hope you will at least be able to enjoy some moments. To have some time in the moment just for yourself.
My son's favorite color is red too and every time he picks something because it is red I think of Ally. She will not be forgotten.
I just wanted to let you all know that I think of you all often! I am sorry for all the hard times that you are all going through & no one, not even myself, could understand what you are all going through & we never will. I hope you all stay as strong as you can through these tough times & know that you are in a lot of peoples thoughts & prayers everyday. Also, Merry Christmas to you all & to Angel Ally, I hope you get every present that you could possibly ask for! You are missed everyday!
A few weeks ago, Cody (he was in Sunday School with Ally) and I were outside kicking the ball on the ground to each other and he stopped kicking the ball to me and said "here" and started kicking the ball in the air. After kicking the ball for a while in the air I asked him what he was doing - he said I'm kicking the ball to Ally - He was giggling and having a great time. He continued to do this for about 10 to 15 minutes. When we were ready to go in he got to the door, stopped, turned around and said "Thanks for playing with me Ally". Thought it was important - since I firmly believe Ally is all around us all each day.