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D. Stinnard's Daughter Megan / Sunday, November 30 2008 07:57 PM

I hope you will have fun and Ally will be with you on all the rides and if you take a picture with Mickey i think she might be in the picture. It was sad that once Ally got off her tubes and that she went to God but you have to remember that God has given times for when he wants you and when you and Shane go you will find Ally nice and healthy and i hope you have a wonderful holiday.

STeph / Sunday, November 30 2008 06:58 PM

I hope you enjoy your time in Disney. I know the holidays are hard. Just know Ally is with you and you are in everyones prayers.

Lynn from MOPS / Sunday, November 30 2008 11:44 AM

Jill -- I have little wisdom but what I do have is what I can share, what you probably already know, that the first year of holidays is the hardest. It never gets "easy" but it gets "easier" . . . and you are always and forever in my prayers. Have a wonderful time in Disney. Let those moments of fun carry you away.

The Bollingers / Saturday, November 29 2008 08:50 PM

Enjoy your time in Disney. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

unibrower / Saturday, November 29 2008 03:50 AM

We hope you all have fun in Disney-hopefully the weather is good. Our Ally is no longer suffering and she is Smiling. Love to all

Carol Yeager / Friday, November 28 2008 08:33 PM

I hope that the days will get better for all of you as time goes on.I know by all that I have read about your little girl that this is what she would say that makes her happy,just to look down and see that you are going on with your everyday routines with Ashley and that maybe you can do this for her so she knows that she hasnt caused you to be lonley and heartbroken.I guess you must think that I must be a stronger person than you but you know truthfully in my book I think you have me beat for I dont know if I could be that strong , PLEASE just enjoy the times you have with Ashley because you both need eachother more now than ever.GOS BLESS.

Mary / Friday, November 28 2008 08:02 PM

I was thinking of you guys all of thanksgiving and I think Ally came and stole some of our lemon bars and pumpkin pie!

D.Stinnard / Friday, November 28 2008 02:23 PM

Enjoy your week in Disney and hopefully the magic will make it special for all of you. Peace be with you.

Diane / Friday, November 28 2008 11:46 AM

Jill, Shane & Ashley -- I hope you have a wonderful time in Disney and that its magic will help to ease your pain and loss. Life doesn't stop for a second, no matter what happens. May you find peace that Ally is no longer suffering and is now smiling all of the time, knowing that her parents and big sister love her very much.

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Dayle and Dave / Friday, November 28 2008 02:01 AM

Happy Thanksgiving! Remembering all those special moments helps. You are always in our prayers.God Bless Love, Dayle & Dave

Carol Yeager / Thursday, November 27 2008 12:18 AM

I am so glad to hear from you and also to know that Ashley is taking part in school plays.I know she will brighten your day when you see her perform in the play,GOBBLE,GOBBLE - just a little turkey humor in me I guess,I hope it made you laugh.I hope that your Thanksgiving will be a good one and that you will be with your family and,or friends.Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family.Keep smiling,you know that Alley is watching down and she sees your smiles all the time.GOD BLESS and I hope you enjoy the day. I look forward to hearing from you all the time online.YOUR one of many online friends allways,

phil h / Wednesday, November 26 2008 10:06 PM

Jill, Shane and Ashley, Happy Thanksgiving and know that the second grade Sunday School class is still praying for your family

Kim/Angel_Wings / Wednesday, November 26 2008 08:25 PM

Praying your family has a Happy Thanksgiving - You are in my thoughts and prayers. May God bless you extra special with peace and comfort this year.

andrea horn / Wednesday, November 26 2008 05:23 PM

jill, you are an inspiration to everyone! there is so much to learn from you, shane, ashley and ally. thank you for sharing your special story. it's a beautiful gift to all of us. wishing you and your family strength and love...

The Davidheiser's / Wednesday, November 26 2008 04:37 PM

Jill, Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family. I know Ally is looking down on you with her beautiful smile. We still pray for your family every night at dinner, and with Ally's picture on our fridge, I see her sweet face every day, sometimes I just have to give her a kiss. God Bless you all this holiday season!

Tara Hannahoe / Wednesday, November 26 2008 12:50 PM

You guys are constantly, still, in our thoughts and prayers. I know it must seem like the world is moving on and yours is standing still, so please know that we recognize that and think of you and "baby Ally" daily.

The Bollingers / Wednesday, November 26 2008 12:08 PM

Keeping you in our thoughts and prayers. Praying you will have a Happy Thanksgiving. God Bless.

Deanna / Wednesday, November 26 2008 12:01 PM

Love the pic of Ally! So beautiful... even with the yellow eyes! Happy Thanksgiving Jill, Shane and Ashley.

Christie Groover / Wednesday, November 26 2008 09:53 AM

Jill - you and Shane and Ashley will be in my thoughts, as always, for these especially hard holidays. We all know Alli is looking down on all of you and maybe she'll make these holidays' even more special with her little signs. God bless you all.

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Steph / Monday, November 24 2008 02:01 AM

Just wanted to let you know I still think of Ally and your whole family everyday. You are in our prayers that you continue to have strength to get through everyday.

Kim/Angel_Wings / Friday, November 21 2008 11:20 PM

Just stopping in to let you know I'm thinking of you all and praying each day gets easier. I pray you are able to feel God's love and comfort...and that His peace envelopes you day and night.

Arlene W / Friday, November 21 2008 02:14 AM

Jill, I understand how you feel when you can't explain how you didn't know Ally was sick and why you didn't see it. I was with my mother the entire day. We went shopping and had dinner. Not once did I think anything was wrong. That night I rushed her to the hospital and she was gone. I blamed myself for the longest time. Why didn't I see that she was sick and that would be the last time with her. I have to look at it another way, I got to be with her on her last day. I replay that day over and over again in my head and try to leave out the ending. I got to have her for one more day. I pray for you and your family.

Deanna / Thursday, November 20 2008 02:13 AM

Maybe someday we'll understand what happened and why we were to become mothers to such medically fragile children, but for now please continue to live each day to the fullest. You are so strong and it will get better. Continue to remember the happy times and take care of yourself.

Carol Yeager / Thursday, November 20 2008 02:04 AM

Please know that everytime you shed a tear that Ally is looking down upon you and knowing that you are sad will only make her unhappy because now she is a whole new person without feeling any discomfort or pain . I hope that while you are trying to understand this tha you must try harder to be happy for her.I hope that you dont think it is bad of me to say this but you must try to be at peace for her so she can finally rest'My prayers and thoughts are allways with you.GOD BLESS AND GIVE YOU STRENGTH to go on as Ally would want you to do.ALL My PRAYERS ARE ALLWAYS WITH YOU.

D.Stinnard / Thursday, November 20 2008 12:47 AM

Everyone's right you can't blame yourself. Find the smiles and the butterflies that she sends your way. Remember the fun and smiles she gave and recieved.

The Bollingers / Wednesday, November 19 2008 02:08 PM

Please don't blame yourself, you had no idea what was happening to Ally's body. You did what any other parent would have done. You and your husband are great parents. Praying for strength for you and your family. God Bless

Judi / Wednesday, November 19 2008 01:56 PM

Jill, it breaks my heart to hear you blame yourself. There is no blame to be placed on you, or your husband, or anyone who gave Ally all those months of love and happiness. For her to be so happy through all the pain she suffered is a testament to the fact that you would have done ANYTHING to help her survive. God wanted her for reasons of His own, that is all there is to it. My baby is 6 months old and is still waking up at night. I cry over Ally when I am up with my baby, and I talk to Ally and ask her to reveal herself to you because I can only imagine that is your one comfort. She is in Heaven looking over you and Daddy and Ashley, and taking care of you as you took care of her so wonderfully over her beautiful, short life. God Bless.

Sandra / Wednesday, November 19 2008 01:42 PM

Thinking of you always... I can not wait to see you Friday night!!!!!

Hilary / Wednesday, November 19 2008 01:06 PM

Hi Jill - What a wonderful sign! How great that you recognize them and revel in them. God continues to bless you and yours. Take care, h

Luann / Wednesday, November 19 2008 12:38 PM

Hang in there and continue to keep the faith. Remember you'll ALL be together one day! I think of you often even tho I don't know you. I share your grief and pain of losing a child. Ally lives on thru such beautiful memories you have with her. Don't drive yourself crazy over the "what ifs"? When I find myself doing that... I think " God does not make mistakes " !! Take care!!

phil h / Wednesday, November 19 2008 12:13 PM

May God continue to give you and your family strength during this time

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Carol Yeager / Friday, November 14 2008 03:19 AM

Please keep me on your list of friends and allways remember that YOU AND YOUR FAMILY will remain in ourprayers.I specially would loke to say that you are one remarkably lady and a GREAT MOM ,I only hope that you will be able to find peace in time and allways know that we online are thinking and praying for you allways. Hope strength and faith will see you throughtlife to come.ALL MY LOVE,ALLWAYS, Carol

Meghan B. / Thursday, November 13 2008 09:04 PM

The glass tears are a wonderful idea and so beutiful. As a Boyertown resident it makes me even happier to see that they are made at the local glass blowing shop in Boyertown. Your family is in my family's thoughts and prays everyday and will always have a specail place in our hearts.

The Bollingers / Thursday, November 13 2008 12:02 PM

Praying Ashley will fee better soon. Happy to hear you had a good trip to Pittsburgh. I'm sure it was very therapuetic for the both of you. Keeping you in our thoughts and prayers.

phil h / Thursday, November 13 2008 11:24 AM

glad to hear you had a nice time Peace Be With You

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Kristen Allen / Tuesday, November 11 2008 05:03 PM

Jill, Shane And Ashley, This poem pretty much says it all. Good luck in Pittsburgh. My thoughts and prayers will be with you. I pray to Ally every night to continue to watch over you and your family. Kristen Allen

unibrower / Tuesday, November 11 2008 04:48 AM

Thank you for sharing the poem with us. We hope you have a nice time in Pittsburg. You all are in our thoughts & prayers- Lots of love to you all

The Bollingers / Monday, November 10 2008 12:09 PM

Hope you and Ashley have a good time in Pittsburgh. Praying your trip is safe and peaceful. The poem is so pretty and I can understand why it give you peace. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

Deanna / Monday, November 10 2008 02:03 AM

Jill, Thanks for sharing that beautiful poem. It sums up our feelings so well. I hope your trip to Pittsburgh was fulfilling... I know how hard it must have been. Hopefully we will see each other again in Baltimore or Philly.

Carol Yeager / Monday, November 10 2008 01:28 AM

I was so touched to hear that you can find peace and comfort from the E-Mails that all your friends sent to you ,I guess maybe now you can see just how strong you can be and that I know in someway that Ally knows that too Allways remember that she can see whatever youare doing wherever you are.Please find comfort and peace for her sake,I am sure that she would want that for you ALL MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU every day and night.

Marcy / Sunday, November 9 2008 10:29 PM

Jill and Family as soon as i read that it gave me chills but please know god is with you and he is always! You been through alot with her and she with the lord he will take good care of her.

Jodee Reid / Sunday, November 9 2008 02:32 PM

HI Jill It was so good to see you last night. This poem sums up words that I myself have not been able to find to tell you how sorry I am that Ally earned her wings. Thank you to the person who sent this to you and thank you for sharing it with us.

phil / Sunday, November 9 2008 12:41 PM

Hope you had a nice time in Pittsburgh. May the poem grant you peace and comfort during this time

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Sarah-7 North CHP / Monday, November 10 2008 06:16 AM

I remember how adorable Ally was in that alice costume...she seemed so proud to be wearing it. She really did make everyones day brighter. I am lucky to have taken care of her. I also remember Tamiya and her belly sticking out of her costume ha, and how caring and friendly Ashley was to her. Another one of my favorite memories of Ally was last year on Christmas Eve, she was sooo excited at the thought of Santa coming. I was her nurse that night and in the early morning her dad snuck in while she was sleeping in put presents in her room. I was so touched by that, and I secretly wanted her to wake up before I left so I could see the look on her face. I'm sure it was priceless! I think about your family often and you and Ally will continue to be in my prayers. We miss her. xxoo

the Davis' / Saturday, November 8 2008 12:59 AM

Stay strong all of you, we are praying for you at every meal and at bedtime. Ally has touched so many lives and continues to spread her joy. I am just amazed at how she seemed to be always smiling!! She is helping you through this, keep the faith. It is awesome that you worked so hard to give her so much fun and experiences and made all those memories for Ashley. You are totally tremendous and exceptional parents! My Ally put red rubberbands on her braces in honor of your Ally. We send our hugs, love and prayers to you all. Jenn

Sandra Kerr/Agape Girl / Friday, November 7 2008 05:51 PM

You know, I do not know you or your family yet I think of all of you daily. I wish there were words to make all of the hurt go away, but there is not, if there were I am sure all who know you would speak them to you over and over again. The only thing I can think of to say is thank you for giving such gift to the world being your children, they truly are gifts to be loved and you do such a great job of that. Also, you will be reunited physically with your sweet baby again and it will be FOREVER, right now you are only together spiritually, you have wonderful memories hold on to them. Let the hurt out, it is ok to let it out, matter of fact you MUST let it out. Please know that I am praying for all of you and I trul thank you for sharing your family with me and everyone. Please also hold on to the fact that you all will be together forever--no pain, no tears -- only joy, pure joy. God Bless all of you, I am praying for you and I think your husband and youself are so special and beautiful, the way parents are meant to be, I thank you for that. Love in Christ, Sandy

Deanna / Friday, November 7 2008 02:53 AM

Jill, You are always on my mind... the strongest woman I know. Ally's picture popped up on our screen saver today... I miss her smile. So glad you are thinking of the happy times. Love ya and call if you need to talk.

Carol Yeager / Friday, November 7 2008 12:52 AM

I am constantly thinking of you and your family and how you all are coping I do hope that each day will get better somehow for you . I do believe that Ally would want that and just knowing it will let her rest more peacefully.God Bless you.Take care and please feel free to write whenever you need to , we all are here for you and we will allways be here to listen.Take care and again GOD BLESS

Vicki / Thursday, November 6 2008 11:36 PM

Just because someone passes away it doesn't mean your relationship ends~ An exert from the book "Tuesdays With Morey". You should not have to worry about not talking about your Ally, you can talk about her as much as you want to, whenever you want to. This is your time to work through this. You should not have to worry or be concerned with what others think. You will work through this in your own way and your own time. You will recover one day and the memories will always live on. Always, any mother knows.

The Davidheiser's / Thursday, November 6 2008 04:13 PM

Jill, it is comforting to hear your feelings in the letters you write to Ally. I have her picture from the service on our fridge, and think of her, and your family, every time I'm in the kitchen. It makes me sad to know she is gone, but it also makes me very happy to see her little face and be glad that I got to know and love her. She will always be with you in your heart and memories, and people understand that maybe some days you can't talk, and other days you really need to. You are always in our prayers and Ally lives in everyone that knew her! Keep your strength and faith.

Sherry Strock / Thursday, November 6 2008 01:44 PM

Jill: I think about you and your family every day. My thoughts and prayers are always with you. Just be yourself and let whatever your feeling out. You may be surprised at how many people that you see at work are going through or have gone through what you have. Maybe even hearing about Ally could help someone. We love you all so very much. The Strocks, Bill, Sherry, Zach, Miranda and Dominic.

Kirsten Yarnall / Thursday, November 6 2008 12:30 PM

Jill,Just let yourself be sad. I don't think anyone expects you to just move on from this at the snap of your fingers. Ally is your child. Her passing does not change that. God sent Ally to you and your family for reasons far beyond our own understanding and you should never feel badly for wanting to hold on to that desire for closeness to her. She truly does have one of the best seats in this world to watch over all of you and she IS helping you through this. She will continue to help you, Shane, and Ashley through this. She wants you to be happy and to enjoy your days here. To be that phenomenal Mommy to Ashley like you have always been to her. She knows you hurt right now. She also knows your strength in facing everything that comes your way. She saw it with her own eyes. Honor her and her life by continuing to be you. Sad when you feel sad. Strong when you feel strong. Happy when you are filled with joy over something. I can't say what feels "normal" after what you have lost. All I really know is that God somehow gives us the ability to keep getting up and moving forward no matter what we endure in life. It feels different and is, without doubt, more difficult but somehow He helps us to push forward. I will continue praying for you and your family. Know that there are many of us here. Available when you need us. We love you. Kirsten

The Bollingers / Thursday, November 6 2008 12:04 PM

Keeping you in our thoughts and prayers.

Eileen / Thursday, November 6 2008 08:20 AM

I love the idea of the tree for Ashley to take care of like she took care of Ally. Hope you get to see her soon in your dreams