So sorry for the delay in updating but I wanted to thank everyone who came out to Ally's breakfast! Despite the weather it was a beautiful morning with a video of Ally playing, reminding us all what a special angel she was and how precious life really is.
A special thank you to all of the volunteers at this event!!! Also thank you to the Boyertown Relay for Life team, the J-Walkers, who are usually busy cooking up a cure but this time they were just cooking up a fantastic breakfast! A huge thanks also goes out to Jim and Diane Davidheiser for organizing the majority of this event. Finally thanks to my Mom and Dad for all the hard work they did to help make sure this event was a success and for always being my biggest supporters!
Just a quick update to remind everyone to come out Saturday morning to honor Ally's memory and support a great cause!
Saturday Oct. 17th 2009
St. John's Lutheran Church
Time: 7 to 11a.m.
Take out is also available
Seniors and Under age 12 $5
All Breakfast Proceeds benefit the Gift of Life Family House, Philadelphia.
Also a quick note to anyone volunteering for the event, if you have not heard from me about the time you are scheduled to work please give me a call 484-942-8831. If you are donating bake goods for the bake sale table they can be dropped off at the church Friday night between 5 and 8 p.m. or brought to the breakfast Saturday morning.
Thanks again to everyone for your help and support. Especially all the support this past week.
One year ago today, mommy, ashley and I experienced our most horrific day of sorrow. Losing you will never get easier. I know this to be true a year later, and am sure years from now it will be the same.
Daddy took this day off, to be alone and just reflect on life, the past year of all I have gone through and a chance just to spend time remembering you. I thought about doing something special for someone else, but couldn't find the energy on a day like today.
Ally, the images, the sounds, the smells of that day in the hospital are all so clear to me on this day. There's not a second of that day that can be erased from my memory. Ally, I remember pushing through all the doctors in your room that day as they tried to revive your life, and I remember getting right up to the ear of yours screaming for you not to give up! I remember all the rage and fight in my body wanting to make everything to just stop and for you to wake up!! Of course, in minutes, the room cleared and I was left alone with just mommy and you in the room. Your life here ended, and your new life began. Holding your lifeless body for hours that day, was something I never wanted to imagine, but I knew it was the last time I would be able to hold my baby girl.
Ally, I'm reminded every day of the joy you brought to my life and am blessed to have been able to experience such love of a child. You taught daddy and so many others the many wonderful things that make up life. Daddy, Mommy, and Ashley will always remember your beautiful smile, and will do our best with the rest of our lives to create a legacy of your life to teach and inspire others.
Ally, Daddy asks for only one thing on this day.... today and everyday, please help guide and give your sissy strength to grow up and be able to look back at the past as one of the best times of her life. Daddy worries so much about her. Please take care of her when I can't. Both you and Ashy will always be Daddy's little angels!
Hi baby girl, it's been awhile since I have written to you. God, I miss you. Ash and I were talking the other day about what you do all day in Heaven to keep busy. (Although I think the other day you were busy riding in the car with us singing to one of your favorite songs playing on the radio!) Most of the time though I am sure you are just busy watching over all of us.
Today was October 1st, part of me was hoping this month would never come. So many reminders of what life was like a year ago, so many memories. I keep thinking of how happy you were everyday to go to school and how much fun you had at Ash's birthday last October. I will always be in disbelief of how much life can change in a moment.
If I could I would go back to last year and know to savor every laugh, every touch, every smile...every moment of life with you. But then I didn't design the way life and death work. It's just hard being without you and sometimes life doesn't seem all that fair. I guess you probably knew that better than anyone and yet it never kept you from smiling!
I had a little patient today that really made me think of you. She had wispy curly hair just like yours...maybe a little darker. She kept doing this bulldog smile and pushing her lower jaw forward just like I have so many pictures of you doing. She was sweet like you too.
Ash seems to be having a harder time right now too with missing you. I know she thinks of her birthday and losing you as something that happened at the same time. She told me the other night that she doesn't understand why some brothers and sisters (or siblings) don't get along, that if she had a brother or sister she would never be mad at them or want them to go away because at least she would have a brother or sister. What am I supposed to say to her? I will always feel like I have let her down by not being able to keep you safe. I just tell her that I miss you too and that I know how much she hurts.
Oh well baby, like I said life isn't fair and although tomorrow we will still wake up missing you just as much as today, maybe it will be a good day. Ash has parent visitation day tomorrow at school. Siblings aren't allowed but I bet they will make an exception for you!