My Sweet Angel Ally...
One year ago today, mommy, ashley and I experienced our most horrific day of sorrow. Losing you will never get easier. I know this to be true a year later, and am sure years from now it will be the same.
Daddy took this day off, to be alone and just reflect on life, the past year of all I have gone through and a chance just to spend time remembering you. I thought about doing something special for someone else, but couldn't find the energy on a day like today.
Ally, the images, the sounds, the smells of that day in the hospital are all so clear to me on this day. There's not a second of that day that can be erased from my memory. Ally, I remember pushing through all the doctors in your room that day as they tried to revive your life, and I remember getting right up to the ear of yours screaming for you not to give up! I remember all the rage and fight in my body wanting to make everything to just stop and for you to wake up!! Of course, in minutes, the room cleared and I was left alone with just mommy and you in the room. Your life here ended, and your new life began. Holding your lifeless body for hours that day, was something I never wanted to imagine, but I knew it was the last time I would be able to hold my baby girl.
Ally, I'm reminded every day of the joy you brought to my life and am blessed to have been able to experience such love of a child. You taught daddy and so many others the many wonderful things that make up life. Daddy, Mommy, and Ashley will always remember your beautiful smile, and will do our best with the rest of our lives to create a legacy of your life to teach and inspire others.
Ally, Daddy asks for only one thing on this day.... today and everyday, please help guide and give your sissy strength to grow up and be able to look back at the past as one of the best times of her life. Daddy worries so much about her. Please take care of her when I can't. Both you and Ashy will always be Daddy's little angels!
GOD bless you Ally!
Love you always, Daddy