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Fri, Nov 6, 2009 9:01 AM
Please say some extra prayers today for the Owens family. Karen Owens posted on Gavin's website early this morning that "Gavin was in his final moments". Even though the Owens have known this day was coming, there is no way that they could be prepared for the pain they will have to endure of living everyday without their little boy.

Later today Gavin will probably be at peace. Please pray that somehow Karen and Adam can find peace too. Also extra prayers are needed for Gavin's big sister Madi. She will be six in just a few short months and has endured more emotional roller coaster rides than anyone should have to.

Karen's post yesterday broke my heart...she asked for more time. When we lose someone we love so much, there has never been enough time. We could never be prepared to let them go. Everyday we all take time for granted, we take the people we love for granted. We never really know when time will be up.

I am not trying to be morbid, I am just stating the truth. We really have no control over time. So the next time you think, "maybe I should take that once in a lifetime trip"...do it. The next time you think, "I should tell my kids how proud I am of them"...do it. The next time you think, "I should work less and enjoy life more"...do it. The next time you think, "I love you"...say it.

Any moment could be someone's last moment. Do you want to spend your time regretting the things that you didn't take the time to do or say. Do you want to waste your energy being mad or upset with someone you love. "Life is short" is such a cliche but, it is so true. Once someone you love is gone from your life you will wish for the chance to say or do these things a thousand times over but, you will never get time back the time to do them.

Pleae remember prayers for the Owens.
Jill

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Debi: Thanks for the reminder Jill, so true, there is never enough time. Life is short and we are all guilty of not living everyday to the fullest or saying and/or doing all we could/should for others. Thank you.

Carol Yeager: I am so very sorry to hear about Gavin and my heart goes out to them at their time of such hearaches and emotional pain, there are just so many things to say that I know seem to be so small but really they do come from thr bottom of my heart and also I wish that all pain and suffering could just be erased from the earth so all of us could just be happy for all the days of our lives that we have left.Again all my heartfelt emotions go out to Gavin and his family and also to you and yours also.

Jan: Amen, Jill.

holly: that's so sad.it's awful to know what they're going to be going through and no one can do anything about it.that's an awful place to be ,between a sense of peace and anguish.i'll be thinking of the Owens family and sweet little Gavin.

Sheila: Thanks for the reminder Jill, its always needed. I've been following the Owens blog for some time and will continue to pray. For you, Ashley & Ally too.

SHANE: You and I both know today and everyday after this day, life will be difficult for both Adam and Karen. I'm sure our baby girl is already to welcome her new friend through those beautiful gates of heaven. I know Ally will take care of Gavin and great him with a big beaming smile!

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Wed, Oct 21, 2009 8:46 PM
So sorry for the delay in updating but I wanted to thank everyone who came out to Ally's breakfast! Despite the weather it was a beautiful morning with a video of Ally playing, reminding us all what a special angel she was and how precious life really is.

A special thank you to all of the volunteers at this event!!! Also thank you to the Boyertown Relay for Life team, the J-Walkers, who are usually busy cooking up a cure but this time they were just cooking up a fantastic breakfast! A huge thanks also goes out to Jim and Diane Davidheiser for organizing the majority of this event. Finally thanks to my Mom and Dad for all the hard work they did to help make sure this event was a success and for always being my biggest supporters!

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Donna: just stopped by to tell you I was thinking of you and praying for you.

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Carol Yeager: I was glad to hear that things went well and I also seen a clipping about it. THANKS AGAIN FOR KEEPING ME UP TO DATE.

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Thu, Oct 15, 2009 10:10 PM
Just a quick update to remind everyone to come out Saturday morning to honor Ally's memory and support a great cause!

Ally's Breakfast
Saturday Oct. 17th 2009
St. John's Lutheran Church
Boyertown, PA
Time: 7 to 11a.m.

All-u-can eat!!!
Take out is also available
Adults $7
Seniors and Under age 12 $5

All Breakfast Proceeds benefit the Gift of Life Family House, Philadelphia.

Also a quick note to anyone volunteering for the event, if you have not heard from me about the time you are scheduled to work please give me a call 484-942-8831. If you are donating bake goods for the bake sale table they can be dropped off at the church Friday night between 5 and 8 p.m. or brought to the breakfast Saturday morning.

Thanks again to everyone for your help and support. Especially all the support this past week.

Jill

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Debi: Another great breakfast for Ally......hope it was a huge success!

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Tue, Oct 13, 2009 9:30 AM
My Sweet Angel Ally...

One year ago today, mommy, ashley and I experienced our most horrific day of sorrow. Losing you will never get easier. I know this to be true a year later, and am sure years from now it will be the same.

Daddy took this day off, to be alone and just reflect on life, the past year of all I have gone through and a chance just to spend time remembering you. I thought about doing something special for someone else, but couldn't find the energy on a day like today.

Ally, the images, the sounds, the smells of that day in the hospital are all so clear to me on this day. There's not a second of that day that can be erased from my memory. Ally, I remember pushing through all the doctors in your room that day as they tried to revive your life, and I remember getting right up to the ear of yours screaming for you not to give up! I remember all the rage and fight in my body wanting to make everything to just stop and for you to wake up!! Of course, in minutes, the room cleared and I was left alone with just mommy and you in the room. Your life here ended, and your new life began. Holding your lifeless body for hours that day, was something I never wanted to imagine, but I knew it was the last time I would be able to hold my baby girl.

Ally, I'm reminded every day of the joy you brought to my life and am blessed to have been able to experience such love of a child. You taught daddy and so many others the many wonderful things that make up life. Daddy, Mommy, and Ashley will always remember your beautiful smile, and will do our best with the rest of our lives to create a legacy of your life to teach and inspire others.

Ally, Daddy asks for only one thing on this day.... today and everyday, please help guide and give your sissy strength to grow up and be able to look back at the past as one of the best times of her life. Daddy worries so much about her. Please take care of her when I can't. Both you and Ashy will always be Daddy's little angels!

GOD bless you Ally!

Love you always, Daddy

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steph: I think of ALLY everyday and more the past year. She is always there to help you, ash and mommy and guide you through the right paths. Sorry those horrible images are still so vivid in your mind. I cannot imagine the pain but just know many are here to support and pray for you you and all of your family.

Sandy: Always in my prayers and thoughts. Never a day goes by that we don't think of Ally and look at a picture we have her with that beautiful smile.

Deanna & Brian: Thinking of all of you as we always do and remembering Ally's smiles. We all wore red in her memory. Take care of each other. Love, the Johnsons

Carol Yeager: I just cant think that it has been a year ago that we all got another Angel in Heaven, I just know that whatever she is doing she will allways be remembered bt so many people .She will never be forgotten.GOD BLESS her and her family.

Debra: Darling ALLY lives in us all - FOREVER

Cris: You remind me to hold Maggie Mya and now Liam as close as I can. You and Jill, Ashley and Ally have taught so many of us that this too shall pass. No matter how good or bad this too shall pass. And knowing that we all need to be better people to everyone. We try to make a difference everyday. Thanks Ally for teaching us so many wonderful things about life.

Mary and Maggie: I am praying for you all the time. I know Ally watches over you and will help you get through.

Anonymous: I am thinking and praying of/for you on this day and everyday. I thought that this poem relates to what you may be feeling today.
My Dear Sweet Baby Girl
There have been 365 days that I woke up without you next to me, but 365 days that you woke up in Heaven;
A year has gone by without me holding you, but God has been holding you for a year;
I haven't been able to look at you in 52 weeks, but you watch over me and you have been my angel all that time;
It has been 12 monthes since I've seen your smile, but 12 monthes since I've watched you cry in pain.
I miss you so, I wish you didn't go, but now I see you are better now. I don't know how time works in Heaven, but I will be with you in a few human years, and we can be together for all of eternity happy and smiling constantly. I love you. I miss you. I'll see you soon.

holly: i'm sure it was not an easy day,but i think what you did is good to do sometimes.just be alone.we all really miss ally,she was so darn special.

Debi: Ally will never be forgotten Shane! On this her anniversary day of her new life in heaven or any day. She is in the hearts and souls of so many. The lessons she taught so many of us. The smiles she gave, big enough to carry us thru the toughest of life's hard times. When you think you can't take or handle anymore, think of Ally and all she endured and you feel foolish and so thankful to have known her and her family. What a wonderful daughter you had and now an angel to us all.
Some people only dream of angels......we actually held one in our arms!! :) Remember her today and everyday.....and try to smile when you do as she is smiling down on you. Thank you for all the memories Ally........God bless you!

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Thu, Oct 1, 2009 9:14 PM
Hi baby girl, it's been awhile since I have written to you. God, I miss you. Ash and I were talking the other day about what you do all day in Heaven to keep busy. (Although I think the other day you were busy riding in the car with us singing to one of your favorite songs playing on the radio!) Most of the time though I am sure you are just busy watching over all of us.

Today was October 1st, part of me was hoping this month would never come. So many reminders of what life was like a year ago, so many memories. I keep thinking of how happy you were everyday to go to school and how much fun you had at Ash's birthday last October. I will always be in disbelief of how much life can change in a moment.

If I could I would go back to last year and know to savor every laugh, every touch, every smile...every moment of life with you. But then I didn't design the way life and death work. It's just hard being without you and sometimes life doesn't seem all that fair. I guess you probably knew that better than anyone and yet it never kept you from smiling!

I had a little patient today that really made me think of you. She had wispy curly hair just like yours...maybe a little darker. She kept doing this bulldog smile and pushing her lower jaw forward just like I have so many pictures of you doing. She was sweet like you too.

Ash seems to be having a harder time right now too with missing you. I know she thinks of her birthday and losing you as something that happened at the same time. She told me the other night that she doesn't understand why some brothers and sisters (or siblings) don't get along, that if she had a brother or sister she would never be mad at them or want them to go away because at least she would have a brother or sister. What am I supposed to say to her? I will always feel like I have let her down by not being able to keep you safe. I just tell her that I miss you too and that I know how much she hurts.

Oh well baby, like I said life isn't fair and although tomorrow we will still wake up missing you just as much as today, maybe it will be a good day. Ash has parent visitation day tomorrow at school. Siblings aren't allowed but I bet they will make an exception for you!

I love you Ally,
Mommy

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MJ/Angel_Wings: Good Morning Precious ^^Ally^^ I am thinking about you today and remembering how special and blessed you are. I am praying for your family and friends today on this special day. We all love you and miss you precious little one. MJ/Angel_Wings

Kristene: We are keeping you all in our prayers this month,Jill.Ava asks about Ashley all the time and would love to see her. Ava knows the heartbreak Ashley must feel when she starts fighting with her sister,Paige. I remind them that they are lucky to have eachother no matter what. No one knows what tomorrow may bring. May you find some peace and comfort in the loving messages this month.

Carol Yeager: I am sorry that I am using this way to send you a message but I just read an article in the obituaries that a person that I knew is related to you in some way His last name was Heimbach and I went to school with his son and Daughter, Gee its a small world.I didnt know that you were related to the Heimbacks,well I just thought I would let you know,I hope this day finds you and Ashley in good health and may all your days be filles with sunshine and Laughter,'Remember that there is allways someone looking down and watching over you.Have a great weekend.Your sincere friend allways,Carol(Sissypop52)@aol.com

SMILNMOM@DEJAZZD.COM: YOU ARE IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS DAILY.
I KNOW ALLY'S BIRTHDAY IS THIS COMING WEEKEND. OUR PRAYERS AND LOVE AND CONCERN ARE WITH ALL OF YOU. WE MISS ALLY TOO!
GOD BLESS
LOVE
DAYLE AND DAVE

Brett: Your postings help me remember to cherish each and every day with my girls. Thank you.

Amy Pavlik: It has to be so hard finding words to explain things to Ashley. Just knowing your family's story helps put a perspective on life and the time that we share with our children. It has certainly opened my eyes!

steph: just wanted to let you know that we think of you and pray for you and your family everyday!

Lynne: Wishing we could turn back the hands of time...I miss that smile of Ally's, and her saying - YIN, YIN!! I can still hear her sweet voice. I love you guys. Happy early birthday to Ashley!

Carol Yeager: I am so sorry for your loss and I hope as each day goes by that it gets better and especially for Ash too,I cant say that I know how it feels but I hope you know that we are all praying for the family.As allways you are in our hearts and memories.

Cris: I wish I could explain this to Matthew. He coaches WAY too much baseball and spends too much time in the basement and so little time with Maggie and Mya. Thanks for getting the word out to us...to love every minute that we can.

HeatherHO: Love you Jill :)

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Tue, Sep 8, 2009 11:01 PM
I am happy to announce the latest Angel Ally event...Ally's Breakfast!!! All proceeds from this event will benefit the Gift of Life Family House. With the help of all of you and Ally's Angels, we should be able to make this another great fundraiser!

The Family House is a project that the Gift of Life and the Transplant Foundation have undertaken to help provide emotional and financial support for transplant patients and their families in the Philadelphia region. Currently over 5,800 people are awaiting life saving transplants in this region.

The Family House will ensure a complete circle of care for both adult and pediatric transplant patients and their family by providing a comfortable, safe and affordable place to stay; easing the financial burden of out of pocket expenses; and offering complimentary services including meals, parking, and transportation. With the help of volunteers and staff the Family House will create a nurturing environment of care.

Those served by the Family House will be families of patients being evaluated for transplant, families of hospitalized patients awaiting transplants, transplant recipients returning for follow up care, and also living donors and their families.

For more information on the Gift of Life Family House please visit their website @ http://www.giftoflifefamilyhouse.org

Ally's Breakfast Info:

Saturday, October 17, 2009
7 a.m. to 11 a.m.
St. John's Lutheran Church
45 North Reading Ave. Boyertown, Pa
All You Can Eat for $7
Seniors & Age 12 or Under $5
Take-out also available

If anyone is interested in helping with this event please email me at jbheintz@yahoo.com. I wanted to make this event a little more fun for the kids attending it, so I am planning on having face painting (if anyone is really artistic and would like to have this job, it's still available so please let me know!) There will also be a bake sale table so if you would like to donate an item for the bake sale you may email me or drop off items at the church on Friday October 16, 2009 between 5 and 8 p.m.

As always thank you all for your support.
Jill

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uni-brower: Ash we all hope you have fun in school and meet lots of new friends. Jill we are always thinking of you. Take care.

Jodee Reid: Think of you often Jill. Totally admire your ability to continue to help others. Hope this event goes well.

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Thu, Sep 3, 2009 10:10 AM
Yesterday was Ashley's first day of 1st Grade. She was very nervous before school but seemed to have a great day! Plus she wore her locket with Ally's picture inside to keep close to her heart for extra support! Ash is attending school this year at a different elementary school than last year. Thankfully, she already knew a few other kids at the school. She even had two girls in her class from sunday school and one girl from a class that she used to take at the Y. She also bought school lunch and told me it was fantabulous (whatever that exactly means)!

Make sure you check out the photos of how adorable she looked. We also went to the phillies game last night (they lost!) so I included some pictures in the photo albums from that. I also came across some good pictures of Ally from last September and added a few of them to an album. I love her ballerina photos so take a look at those!

Hope you all have a fun and safe Labor Day!
Jill

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Carol Yeager: Thank you so much for the pictures and I hope that all is going well for all of your family

Carol Yeager: Thank You for the pics,I liked them very much

Stephanie: Ashley looks so cute. Good to see she enjoyed her first day of school with a big smile. She is getting so tall! Want you to know we are always thinking of you and praying for you.

Vickie Tim/Gordon: Jill: Awesome pictures! Ash is getting so Big and that Smile on Aly's Face and Twinkle in her Eye was as if she was saying "Hello" to everyone! Hope all is Well, your in my Prayers ~

dawn: thanks for updating!

Sheila Duffy: Ashley looks adorable, her shoes are so stylish! And Ally makes the cutest ballerina! Thinking of you guys and keeping you in my prayers

Sheila

holly: cute pictures!i always love to see ashley smiling.this will be sad this year at the irish festival,that was the last time i saw ally.i cant beleive it was a year ago.i'll always remember how happy she was on that pony ride.her perfect smile! take care

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Tue, Aug 4, 2009 10:31 PM
Yes!!! I finally figured out how to put photos on the website! Hope you all can enjoy the photos from our trip to the beach a few weeks ago with my family. We made a castle for Ally everyday and put her picture in it along with some special sea shells! The last day her Pop and her cousin Danielle helped to build her Angel Ally logo and it turned out perfect!

Thanks for checking in on us. Please keep our friend Gavin and his family in your prayers. They are dealing with alot of intense decisions right now and we pray for their strength.

Thanks,
Jill

I love you sweet baby girl Ally!
Mommy

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Penny Andrews: Love the pictures! What a great way to enjoy your family and celebrate Ally - I know she was smiling down and helping your hands build those castles.

uni-brower: love the pictures and the neat castle.We are hear to listen. take care Love to all

Sheila: Love the pictures! Glad you had a nice time with your family.

Carol Yeager: I was glad to hear from you and I know that Ally was watching you as you were making those sand castles and I bet she smiled down on you and was saying that she knew you could build those castles just as good as she did.I bet she was just so happy to know that you are going on about your lifestyle just as you have done all along.Keep up the faith and allways remember that there are alot of people right behind you wishing you all the best.GOD BLESS

Deena: Hey, I was just checking in as you were updating...wanted you to know I am thinking of you guys!

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Tue, Jul 14, 2009 10:16 PM
Hi baby girl, how are you tonight? Mommy's having kind of a rough day today. Nothing unusual really happened I just keep having that overwhelming panicked feeling that reminds me that you aren't here but that life keeps going on.

I think maybe I am focusing too much on going to the beach without you next week. I know it always took you awhile to warm up to the ocean and the sand but by the end of your weeks at the beach you were always having tons of fun! I always felt like the luckiest person when I got to sit and watch you enjoy life. Lord knows you deserved to do just that! It's just going to be a hard week but we will come up with something special to honor your memory while we are there.

I even had a hard time not being upset at work today and that's usually where I can keep myself distracted from my thoughts! I was rescheduling a patient for an appointment on October 13th and she asked me "will that be with you?" I didn't know what to say. Again, I know life doesn't stop but lots of times it feels like it should. I shouldn't have to want to scream, "no I had a wonderful daughter that died a year ago on that day and you will never know how wonderful she was"! But then most days I feel like screaming that at people who didn't know you or who don't know that I have two special angels. One that I get to tuck in bed at night and one that watches over me while I sleep.

Don't worry sweetie, I haven't lost my mind, I don't actually scream these things at people. I just want everyone to know that I am not just Ashley's mom but Ally's mom too! That I had this precious child who gave me an immeasurable amount of gifts everyday. And yeah, she was sick and her life was a struggle, but she loved to live life and she loved me! You just can't imagine what it's like to live everyday without you. It still amazes me that people can survive the pain of living without their children, and I am even more stunnedby the fact that I have to be one of them.

Ash and I will find you some special sea shells for you at the beach. I know you were always in charge of rinsing the sand off the shells in your big red bucket so I'll set it next to my chair for you to play with.

I love you Ally,
Mommy

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Vickie Tim: Jill, Through all your trials and tribulations as you sit on the beach remember the one person that has brought you all this far and recite his words to yourself: "Footprints in the Sand" and remember Look around...her footprints will be there, You and shane carried her till the Lord took over! God Bless You! "This is the Day the Lord hath Made Rejoice and be Glad" Enjoy the Time you have raising Ash and Relax! I know it will be hard! Peace be with You~

Dawn: I remember going to college with the thought that from this point on in my life the new people I met would never have had the priviledge to have met my brother...and it made me sad. Sometime the fact that life just rushes on and doesnt stop when we hurt makes it all the harder. It's been 15years since he died and the beach still reminds me of him.... i think that is why i need to be there each year for the bitter sweet memories that i cling to. As a sister who lost a sibling--- THANK YOU for being such a great mom to Ashley and keeping Ally alive for her in ways like the RED bucket. I am proud of you!

Cris: I hope everyone coming and going at different times keeps you occupied....stay as busy as you can...I don't kno whow you will sit still on the beach....God I don't know how you do it Jill! Hang in there...at times the rope has to feel awfully tight. We are taking Maggie and Mya to the beach in a few weeks (the whole family too) and I will think of Ally while we clean off shells too. Love ya' Cris

Carol Yeager: Hello,
I was reading the mail that you sent and I want to say that I think it is great how you continue to allways include Ally in all of your family activities,I guess that the feeling of your dearest Ally being close to you is very comforting. I hope that you continue to allways feel her presence around you and that Ash will allways help to complete your life and allways help to fill the emptiness that you must feel since Ally went to be with her Angels.Ihope that you will continue to get stronger and live life to its fullest just as your little angel would expect you to do.Allways in my thoughts and prayers,Carol(sissypop52)

Nicki: Jill, sending you hugs to try and offer some comfort. My heart breaks for you. I remember all too well the 1st vacation without our Collin. One thing we did to keep Collin with us was to bring a framed photo of him from our trip the summer before. Try to enjoy your time with Ashley. I hope you get a special sign from Ally that she is there with you, if only in spirit. We usually have a pretty butterfly join us as we're walking up to the beach each day :) I'm just a phone call away if you need anyone to talk to. Take care.

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Tue, Jun 30, 2009 9:38 PM
Hi baby girl, just stopping by to tell you I miss you. I keep thinking of 4th of July last year when you were officially discharged from Pittsburgh. I'm so glad you got to come home.

I was at Grandmom's today and found your little baby doll. She was in the bottom of the basket next to your bed. I swear I looked for her before but didn't see her. I brought her home with me and will keep her with your blankies. I looked though some of your books in the basket. Grandmom still had them all there, even "Just go to Bed"! I know that was one of your favorites. I remember us reading it at the hospital.

For the most part Al, your sister and I are doing okay. Everyday is hard but we still get up and keep going. Somethings are harder than others. I really seem to have a hard time at keeping in touch with people. Sometimes it is just easier to keep to myself and not have to explain how I feel or how I am doing. I know the pain of living without you will never change though. It will be just as intense twenty years from now as it is today. People who have been through it tell me that I will get used to living with it. That the pain is still there but you get used to carrying it around. I'm not so sure.

I still wake up somedays in shock that you aren't here and that I have to live the rest of my life without you. I still wake up a lot at night too. Often with the urge to go check on you in bed. The countless times I must have checked on you in the middle of the night. No wonder I never sleep! I still check on your sis though. I always pray that she dreams of you so she can remember all of the wonderful things about you. She loves to talk about you, she is always so proud to be your sister!

It was always rather obvious that you hated fireworks. The screaming, covering your ears, and the shaking pretty much gave it away. Not to mention the constant question "All done now? All done?". But I bet you will see some beautiful ones this weekend and that they will be nice and quiet so you will not be scared. Maybe they will even be all "red ones"!

I love you Ally. Keep watching over all of us and giving all of us the reminders that you are still here with us.

Love,
Mommy

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uni-brower: we are here to listen and weep with you. Ally will always be in our thoughts and prayers. take care. Love to all

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